THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Steph
2. Steve
3. Norway.

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. xstePh11x
2. LiL giMp 11
3. kekePania411 <-- My current one.

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My friendliness.
2. I can laugh at mistakes.
3. & I can be myself.

THREE THINGS YOU HATE/DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. "That I care too much"
2. My lack of control of peoples feelings for me.
3. I bite my nails


THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Norweigain
2. Belgium
3. ???

Tell her you think shes cool.
Tell her why you think shes so cool.
Smell her hair.
Talk to her in movie theaters.
Pick her up & pretend youre going to throw her in the river;
shell scream & fight you but secretly, she`ll love it.
Hold her hand & skip.
Hold her hand & run.
Just hold her hand.
Pick flowers from other peoples
gardens & give them to her.
Tell her she's pretty.
Let her pay if she wants to.
Introduce her to your friends as
The coolest girl you know.
Sit in the park & talk to her.
Just talk to her.
Take her to the library
Take her anywhere.
Tell her dirty jokes.
Tell her happy stories.
Tell her sad stories.
Tell her your stories.
Tell her anything.
Tell her stupid jokes.
Write poems about her.
Just walk with her.
Throw pebbles at her window
& When she starts swearing at you,
... tell her you love her.
Take her to shows of bands shes never heard of.
Hold her hand in the mosh pit.
Let her fall asleep in your arms.
Call her.
Call her back if she calls you.
Sing to her, no matter how bad you are.
Carve your names into a tree.
Get her mad, then kiss her.
Give her piggy-back rides.
Go see her band play even
if they really suck,
& tell her they were great.
Give her space if she needs it.
Push her on swings.
Stay up with her all night when shes sick.
Make up pet names for her,
but cool ones, not sappy ones.
Teach her guitar.
Lend her your cds.
Write on her.
Write about her.
Make her mixtapes.
Write her letters.
Take her to cool shops,
& let her take you to even cooler ones.
Just hang out
with her.
Let her take all the photos of you she wants.
Listen to all the
bands she mentions.
Dont tell her that her favorite bands suck.
When shes sad, hang out with her.
Stay on the phone with her,
even if shes not saying anything.
Buy her ice cream.
Look into her eyes.
Slow dance with her,
even if the music is fast.
Tell her a secret.
Kiss her in the rain.
Just kiss her.
Trust her.
Love her.
Be your self around her.
Cherish her.
. . .
&
when
you
fall
in
love
with
her
tell
her.


 I wonder if I'll ever find that, or that will ever find me.

So, tonight is/was Tolo, I didn't go.. I went to Seattle with my friend Julie instead. =] I think I had a better time there, than if I had gone. I'm sure I'm gonna hear all kinds of `you missed out on ____` or whatever. No regrets!

.. So finals are this coming week.. it's nerve wraking for me.. I need to do realllly good!

Desperate Housewives is on, & I'm gonna watch it..

I hope everyone had a good time at Tolo, and they were safe! =] 

<3

Do any of you have someone in your life [from your family in particular] that you love so much, that you'd die without them? That when no one else will listen, they will? That you can be your absolutle self around & they love you no matter what? ..


WELL, I'm so lucky to have someone like that. It's my brother, Ryan. He went away to Wyo-Tech for 9 months & since he's been home, we've become like best friends.. or I think that at least. Before he left I thought he was the super protective brother that listened to dumb music.. but when he came about, we both had matured & now, he takes the credit for the music I listen to, he drives me all kinds of places when I need it.. I just love him. I just love that in 9 months, someone can go from being a brother, to someone that you can call a great friend.... =)

// Ry, thanks for all that you've done for me. I hope that you never have to wonder if dad would be proud of you or not.. cause he is. So am I. You're like a hero to me. I love you so much <3 Steph \\


 ok, I'm done with the sappy family stuff. ADiOS!

 What if I'm just one of the girls who will just take the attention they get. If it's sincere or not.. Maybe I should start to prepare my heart..


           There's a thing called;
           being happy with yourself,
           I think I'll try it. =)

I have the best brother in the world & I'd die without him..
     "I feel as tho im fallin closer to the edge but im not afraid to fall off anymore.."
           -- My brother, Ryan.

       I don't really have time for an 'update' but.. I thought that was important..


To all my friends; I love you.. & Thanks.

---- Yesterday was rough, so when I went to the bathroom last night to take tylonal, the bottle tipped way too many out. I just looked at them for like, half a second, BUT OF COURSE, my bestest friend[s] IMMEDIATLEY came into my head, and I promised myself I would never do something to make him/her/them feel like they had to worry about me, so I put them back, and only took 2.

I know that sounds.. super retarded, but.. I DIDN'T EVEN COME CLOSE. don't think of me as some pill taker-- make sure that thought never crosses threw your head.. I'm not into that whole.. "I hate the world/I hate my life" stuff. that's DEFINETLY NOT my thing.. and I know that there's always going to be a person or two that will always be a voice in my head when I need it. Thanks; you know who you are! =)

YA'LL HAVE A GOOD ONE. & be safe.

.. yeeeahh.. I'm never nearly that close to being dramatic any of the time, that was a ONE TIME THING. hah..

so, when i walk into the main entrance to the school there was about 20 people there who had heard the story at lunch yesterday, and they all laughed at me when i walked in, until i turned down a hallway. WHOO HOOO. thanks guys!! that just makes me feel real good.. other than that, today was alright, until the pain meds  started to wear off. =( man, my ear hurts soo bad. so right when i was getting home my mom says i have a dr. appt.! oh thank the lord. yep, ear infection, but i got some drops which normally help within days. WHOO. gosh, i thought i was going to CHOP MY EAR OFF, it hurts so bad.

--> it's nice to finally know that beth has realized a thing or two. there will be people who come into your life, stay for however long, and then they might leave.. but there are those people [even if it is a few amount] that are always going to stay in your life. +Beth, I love you so much, I'm ALWAYS going to be here, ok? never forget that, or think something else.. GOT IT WOMAN!? hah

well.. yeeeeah.. later gator.
-- Steph